Today I went on a big clothes shopping trip. It was my first one since having Lincoln. Pre-spree, I had about 3 t-shirts that still fit me: 2 were black and none look exceptionally flattering. I now weigh less than I did before I got pregnant, but my body just isn't the same anymore. You know what I mean? So, I was excited (albeit nervous) to get some things for myself, to make me feel sexy and womanly again. And of course, everything was beautiful and wonderful and I looked hot in everything I tried on! The End!
. . .wait, why are you still reading? Oh, you aren't fallin' for that are you? ;) Here's how today really went down.
At Target when I asked the associate about a clothing item that appeared to be the only one left. "Do you have any more of these in ___ size?" She didn't know, so she asked her co-worker who promptly replied, "Oh, that ugly thing?!" (She didn't realize I was the one asking her co-worker for the thing.) We were brought to talking at that point as she looked for said ugly item. My face was red. She wouldn't look me in the eye. I don't even know what she said to me about it. I just wanted to go crawl under a rock with my ugly fashion sense and WITHOUT said ugly item.
At TJ Maxx, I tried on just about everything in the store in my size. As I approached the fitting room with my second huge pile of clothes, I joked with the sales associate, "I'm sorry I'm giving you so much work! I'm just going shopping for the first time since I had my baby! Having a baby sure does change your body." She was a sweet older Mexican woman, and she was well-meaning. Though it was made me feel quite self-conscious when she replied with something about how I would continue to lose much more weight. Much more weight. This your first one? You will lose much more weight. Yeah, thanks.
At my last stop for the trip, Downeast Basics, I was looking to get a couple camis. The clerk excitedly asked me, "How are you doing today!?!?" "Well, I'm ok. I'm going shopping for the first time since I had my baby. And, honestly it's a little depressing." "Oh, well that's wonderful! How exciting!!" "Yes. It is."
The feeling I mostly had while shopping today was comparable to the time I was watching, "What Not to Wear" with my family several months ago. On that particular episode, Stacy threw away a pair of shoes - a pair I owned and was wearing that very day - with some comment to the girl about being too young to be wearing orthotic granny shoes. *Sigh.*
I want to look nice. I really do. And I have faith that someday, in about 50 years when my age catches up with my fashion sense, I will! ;) Haha. I have yet to share my spoils through Skype with my mom and sisters, so I'm not sure how successful I actually was, but I feel good about it. Mostly, I'm just relieved my "Exciting!!!" shopping trip is over.